Dear Brenna

My little Brenna will be 3 months old this week. I have such mixed feelings about it all. On the one hand, I can't believe she is almost past the newborn stage. Especially since my husband got the big "V" and we realize that she will forever be our last newborn. It's actually very surreal to think about. But, and there's a big but....I'll give you the ugly truth. I am also SO relieved that she is getting bigger with the hopes that her colic and reflux will start to heal. The past few weeks have seemed almost like an eternity just trying to make it through one more day with a very fussy baby.

With all of that in mind, it makes me very sad to think that I just want my precious little newborn to grow, ESPECIALLY since she is our last. I wish so badly that I was able to savour each moment with her. I wish I could just hold her against me for hours without hearing her scream bloody murder for apparently no reason at all. I wish I could feed her without worrying that she's in pain, or that she's going to cry afterward until eventually she falls asleep. It's been a challenging road and one that I will never walk again. And because of that, I'm both relieved and sad at the same time....

But, I digress.... this post is for you my little bear....

Dear Brenna Bear,

I love you with all of my heart, and you have been such a blessing to us. You will forever be the baby in the family no matter hold old you are. Here are some of the things that you are doing right now:

You can hold your head up pretty well
You are sleeping at night up to 7 hours! Good job little one!
You love to be held, but you have to be in just the right position or your tummy will hurt
You love your swing, but only the one that goes side to side (You hated the front to back kind....so your Daddy loves you so much that he bought you a side to side swing for our room too!)
You are drinking 4 ounce bottles like they are going out of style! You can eat girl!
You hate taking your medicine, and it usually makes you scream. Mommy is so sorry that she has to give it to you, but I know it helps your little tummy.
You love your big sisters and they make you laugh a lot!
Your daddy is probably your favorite person right now. As soon as he gets home and holds you, you give him a HUGE smile from ear to ear.
Speaking of smiles, you have the cutest little smile I have ever seen. Your Nama calls it a pixie smile (whatever that means)!
You have a very sweet nature and I think you will be calm once your tummy feels better. You don't seem quite as hyper as your big sister Hayden (at least not yet!)
You grunt ALL the time in your sleep. That's why mommy and daddy let you sleep in your swing at night because you don't make quite as much noise there. I think it makes you more comfortable.
You just found your hands and you think they taste yummy!
You haven't decided yet about the Paci. I think you have a love/hate relationship right now. Perhaps it's because your big sister Hayden always tries to shove it in your mouth!!!

Last but certainly not least, you are such a joy to have in our lives, and I am so looking forward to getting to know your little personality! Mommy loves you very much baby girl!!!

Pictures are worth a thousand words

I would love to be able to say that taking three kids to an afternoon Radio Disney event was a piece of cake. I would love to be able to say that my precious little baby never made a peep. And I would love to be able to say that I was the perfect, patient mommy bringing a sense of calm to an otherwise chaotic situation. But all of those statements would simply be false. I would also love to say that I had enough energy at 10:30pm at night to write all about my experience....but unfortunately, that's not true either.

So instead, I'll try to capture the day with pictures.

Here we are at the beginning of the day....we're having fun so far....


And here's my sister (aka surrogate weekend-hubby) holding baby Brenna....



This is Logan and her friends learning some Miley dances.



And some more dancing...they're definitely having a good time!




After about an hour.....Baby's non-stop crying = a very sad mommy.



And after several hours, even party-girl Hayden is pooped....



But at least one of us still has a sense of humor!

Girls Just Wanna Have Fun

This weekend was one of the best I can remember. On Friday, my beautiful, wonderful, talented, loving sister Denise (aka Deda) came over to help me with the girls since Todd was in Vegas for work. She is such a great Aunt and an even better sister, and I am SOOOOOO thankful for our relationship!

Here she is feeding baby Brenna.



Do you notice the pink tummy band around Brenna? This is my new little gadget, called the "Happy Tummy." It has a little pouch filled with an aromatherapy herbal mix. It's supposed to help with colic. (She seems to like it, but it's still no magic cure as far as I can tell)

Then, on Saturday, all of us girls went to the South Coast Plaza for a Selena Gomez signing. I have never seen such madness! There were approximately 2000 fans there to see her, and of course my little Lolo was one of them! We waited in the line for 6 hours. Correction - my SISTER and friend Bryan waited in line. I pretty much stayed with the babies and went back and forth bringing food and treats. I can hardly believe how good the girls were. Hayden LOVES people and was so cute all day. She kept kicking her feet up on her stroller and waving to people as they passed by. This is her once we finally let her out for awhile.



What a little cutie! She was such a trooper. And baby Brenna hardly cried the whole day (but I didn't get a picture unfortunately). As for Logan, she was on cloud nine and it barely phased her to be out in the sun on her feet for that many hours.
Here she is with her new friend Kaiya (Bryan's daughter).




And this is them looking at their new CD's and all of the songs they can't wait to sing!!



Once we finally got close, the girls were so excited! Here is the best shot I could get of Selena up close.





Though it really did feel like forever once we were there, it was so worth it to see how happy the girls were. My shy, quiet little Logan literally screamed about three times when Selena finally got in our view. And then when she got to meet her, she told her how much she loved her and how pretty she was. Selena was so gracious and nice and thanked Logan for being such a great fan. Logan says she thinks Selena told her she was pretty too, but she can't remember for sure. I think she was just so excited that it's all sort of a blur now. But the whole way home, Logan kept saying "I met Selena Gomez. I actually met Selena Gomez. This is the best day of my life!"

Well, thanks to all of my girls and my sister, this was one of the best days of my life as well!!!

Do I see a pattern?

Tonight is one of my favorite TV nights, so this will be a super quick post. I just have to share these two pictures of my girls from this week....

I think I see a pattern and I'm not sure it's a good one.

This is Hayden after I kept taking her picture while she was playing at Scats Gymnastics. She has that look like "Seriously Mom? Can't you just leave me alone?

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She seems so young to already have such attitude. But then, I see this picture of Logan and realize where she might be getting it.



All I did was ask her what she was reading. Geesh, I can't wait till their teenagers!